TriangGULO (Chapter 11)

My mother knocked to my room. I thought she's going to yell at me.
"Anak, open the door. I want to talk to you," medyo matagal bago ko binuksan ang pinto. Dalawang beses pa siyang kumatok sa wooden door ng room ko. I let her in and I told myself that whatever she'll say, I have to face it.
Nang makapasok na siya, she sat on my bed and then I sat next to her.
"Anak, your Dad told you that I'll explain it to you. So here I am, ready to explain it all. There's a problem sa ancestral business ng Daddy mo. Halos wala na siyang time sa family natin hanggang humantong sa away naming dalawa. I told him to never go back here until his problems about their ancestral business is done," my Mom explained to me.
"But why did you tell it to him? You never have to. You should help him," I reasoned out.
"Anak, hindi lang ito ang unang pagkakataon. Maraming beses na. I didn't told you because you're too young to understand things. And until now, you can't understand it well. Maybe a bit. But I bet you'll never understand it all."
"What are the ways to help him? I don't want to experience a broken family."
"A person who can solve it all," she kissed me on my forehead and said, "'nak I have to go to my room. I have to fix something," she left me immediately.
"Lagi naman eh. You never fixed your problems with me. You just let it pass by," I lay down and started to cry, again.
It's 11pm and I was still awake. Nagdadalawang-isip ako kung pupunta ba akong kuwarto ni Lorraine but of course, I ended up going there.

"O, sino nagpapapasok sa'yo dito?" Lorraine shockingly asked me as I entered her tiny room.
"Bakit," I went to her bed and lie down, "bahay naman namin 'to ah?"
"Bakit," she looked at me while sitting on the left corner of her bed, "di mo naman 'top pinaghirapan ah? It's your Dad's perspiration not yours!"
Nakakainis. I got up and I stared to her. We stared at each other (I missed those eyes. Ngayon ko lang ulit nakita ng malapitan ang blind left eye niya. I miss looking into it. It makes her unique.). Di ko namamalayan umiiyak na pala ako (I was emotional then).
Pinunasan niya ang luha ko gamit ang mga kamay niya. "You're lucky," at tumingin na siya sa malayo, "you're crying with two eyes. Samantalang ako isa lang," tapos bigla na lang siyang tumawa.
"Anong nakakatawa?" I was stopping myself from crying by wiping my tears.
"Ganun ang buhay no," at ayan na naman, nakatingin sa akin (oh God! Nakakatunaw na talaga), "may mga bagay talagang wala ka na meron ang iba."
"Ganun?" she looked at me and smiled (grabe na ah!). I continued, "Pwede bang maglabas ng sama ng loob?"
"Sabihin mo," tingin na naman sa malayo, "tapos saktan mo ako."
"Huh?"
"Ang bingi mo! Ano ba yun?" tingin na naman. It's an endless looking at me and afar. I tell it all to her. She's just looking at me and she keeps being serious. You can see it to her that she's putting herself on the situation.
"Wag kang mag-alala," this is the sweetest part, she HUGGED me while saying, "may guardian angel ka."
"Thanks," I stopped hugging her cause it's electrifying me.
"Game na!"
"Ano?"
"Saktan mo na ako," and what she did is like she's offering her body.
"Bakit naman?" sasaktan mo ba ang taong ayaw mong masaktan.
"Para sulit ang pagpunta mo dito," she took my hands and used it in hurting herself. A moment later, she let go of my hand and slowly, I gave her a girly punch. Habang tumatagal, punching bag na ang nakikita ko. Kaya suntok lang ako ng suntok tapos umiyak na naman. Surely, nasasaktan na siya so she hugged me again and comforted me.
"Bakit ganyan sila?" I was still crying and hugging her.
"Ilabas mo lang. Makikinig ako."
I was like a child having a tantrum. Kinalaunan medyo tumitigil na ako.
"Matulog ka na. Babantayan kita," ihiniga na niya ako.
Ayun, iba na ang takbo ng isip ko. My wild imagination was starting. Sa'yo kaya gawin yun, di ka mapapaisip gaya ko? She let me fall asleep like a child. And I just like it that way. She's sweet on her own. At first, I showed it to her that I'm not yet asleep so that she'll not stop. Pero 'tong si antok, bastos nga naman. Dinalaw ako at knock out na ako.
Ayos na yun. Feeling ko kasi di na ako makahinga. Her sweetness always make me feel that she likes me. Lalo lang akong naiin-love.
I know it's prohibited. But it takes all my pain away.